So yesterday, I was "feeling good" right? And all of today as well. The high of the last two weeks has not worn out. Except for about half an hour this afternoon. And in that half an hour, these were my thoughts - unedited:
Is there anyone in this world who loves me? Does my family love me? Where are my friends when I need them? Do people not care for me because I'm supposed to be "strong"? If I were to "disappear" would anyone miss me? How about if I died, would anyone cry for me?
Yep. Scary. Like, I'm trying to figure out where they came from because I KNOW there are so many people in this world who do love me. My family. My friends. My colleagues. Yet, despite knowing this - I get these random thoughts which really try to take over and make me doubt that very fact. It must come from somewhere...but where? Is there something I'm suppressing? And how the hell do I get it out if there is?
...but lol, don't worry, I'm back on my high. Strange enough. Fascinatingly strange.
What do YOU think?
2 comments :
I love you.
What gustavo said :-D
xxx
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