I know you want me backI laughed out loud after that!
It's time to face the facts
That I'm the one that's got away
Lord knows that it would take another place, another time,
another world, another life
Thank God I found the good in goodbye
You see, the song totally, and I mean TOTALLY speaks of a situation I experienced with each verse describing everything I went through. Even that last verse, strangely enough seems to apply (or at least some friends think so! lol)
A few years back, I met a guy... and long story short, we got into a strange pseudo-relationship. At first, it was cool, fun with lots of laughter and sharing. Then it turned unhealthy filled with so many lies, guilt and shame. Somewhere along the way, I lost my self-respect and confidence. I found myself turning into someone I didn't like. I wasn't true to my beliefs and my truth.
More than a year ago, something (can't even remember what!) triggered me to cut off all contact. Snip snip and that was it. Deleted from FB, Skype, MSN, yahoo, gmail and all other links. Ignored his emails and voice messages. Screened his calls at home, work and on my cellphone. From one day to the next, everything changed. And I have not looked back since. Don't get me wrong it was painful, sad and perhaps unfair but for my sanity and integrity, I had to do it.
Slowly I started respecting myself again and regaining confidence in who I am - a good-hearted, strong, beautiful and intelligent Samoan woman, who deserves better. I was free from the lies, from the feeling of being used or taken for granted. I wasn't doubting or mistrusting any more. And I also managed to walk away with some very good memories and learnings for the future.
But more than anything and above all that - I forgave - him of course, but myself even more!!!
And so I got ME back.
And that my friends is the best thing I have EVER had! :)
So let's give it up for our girl B, for telling it as it is:
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